It wasn't too many years ago that I found myself living in a little green house (860 square feet little). I was seven months pregnant with our third child when we moved in. We'd been through a lot, and our journey wasn't near over. We added baby #4 here as well. All six of us, two bedrooms, one bathroom...eight miles out in the country outside of a town of 3,000. To some, that may sound like heaven. But I'd NEVER lived in the country. I'd never lived in the south. I'd never lived in 860 square feet with six people. I was majorly struggling with depression, sleep deprived, and lonely. My husband worked two jobs, six days a week, and was working with trainer to go pro with golf. The most precious part of life at that time was the season where for a brief period in the afternoon, everyone was either at school or napping. That was my time with God, and it was life to me. The dining room table was my special place.
We listened to a song last night that was so powerful to my heart. It reminded me of this season. Honestly, I was pretty frustrated with God at this time. Life was pretty hard - too hard if you asked me. I spent so much time wondering what I was made for, if there was a light at the end of the tunnel. Then I would feel guilty for doubting God and questioning His plan.
But this was the time that God birthed a vision in me for what He was calling me too. It was there that He led me in a new kind of relationship with Him. It was there that I began my first book.
You see, from the beginning, God has wanted us to be in His presence and meet with Him. In the tabernacle, there was the table that held the "Bread of the Presence". The priests were to keep the bread fresh. It symbolized truly taking in God Himself and learning to enjoy Him....not what He does...not what He provides - but HIM!
This song reminded me of how at some points in my life, I've not even been strong enough to come to the table by myself to meet with God. I think most of us moms get there at some point. We feel week, sleepy, unable to even find the time. It is those times, when God literally carries the week to the table. He doesn't just set it. He doesn't just invite us, but He will actually carry us there when we can't make it on our own.
Why? Because He is that desperate for us to enjoy Him.
Amazing.
I'm praying you take the time to watch this video. Remember, you are the bride. You are the bride of Christ. He has set the table for you. ...and when you are week, and overcome with sin...when you've yelled at your kids and let your husband down...when you feel to unworthy to come on your own...The God Who loves you more than anything will pick you up. He will carry you. He will bring you to the table to meet with Him.....all you have to do is let Him.
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